Good list otherwise, though.

“Someday, you’re gonna realize…
One day, you’ll see this through my eyes,
By then, I won’t even be there,
I’ll be happy somewhere…
Even if I cared”

I, was I’m a relationship for 4 year’s and I was going to get married to him but are relationship was under alot of pressure and after one to many cracks at one another we ended thing’s and it was not ended on a great note. But, I had to move on and live my life with out him even tho it pretty much killed me. I, was doing great until i went to the movie’s, with a few of my friends and I saw him but he was not alone he was with one of my old friend’s, I said hello to them but he really did’nt even look at me. I, went home that night and put on

secondhand serenade maybe

Maybe it’s just me, Couldn’t you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn’t just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And i cried my eyes out. I, was very upset for a week i left my house to go to starbucks to get some coffee and get some fresh air to just breathe and i was sitting there drinking my coffee when my ex came in he was alone but he got his coffee and sat down by me he told me that he was sorry how things ended but that he was in love with his new girlfriend and that we could never be anything again i just smiled and told him i understood i left and when home and cried my eyes out once again. that night i was looking for some music to listen to when i heard this song and the song just made me look into my life and i just cried and let everything out everything that was once in my system and just let it go my days wore hard but i just listened to

Maria Mena Sorry

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I’m lonely
And I don’t think you meant it when you said you couldn’t love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you’d feel it too

He said I’m sorry
so sorry
I’m sorry
so sorry

i started to feel a little better about the break up but then i started to feel angry and mad and i was very upset that we broke up so i changed the music and i added angry songs very angry songs into my mix’s of music i would listen to when i would cry at night. I listened to songs like

A day to remember – The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle
I’m looking down at this mess that you’ve made
and I can’t believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I’ve got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We’re leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

Five Finger Death Punch – Hate Me

I never had the chance to thank you
(FOR RIPPING OUT MY HEART)
It’s not enough
It’s not enough
It never was or will be
I never got the chance to say
(F*** YOU)
You’ve got a gun
I’ve got a gun
Let’s write a tragic ending

then i started to think its not really fair to be so angry at him for ending things because we both needed things to end for us so i started to listen to softer songs that wore sad but not so angry
i was doing great until i ran into him again i found that him and his new wife wore moving and wore going to be having a baby something i always wanted to do with him i was very sad so i left and went home and just music on the music and sat down and cried

Demi Lovato – Don’t Forget

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret (did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I’m left to forget
About us

Then i started to get better where i was’nt even really mad or angry i was mostly over it but i still had some feelings left in my system so i started to listen to

Little Wonders – Rob Thomas

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don’t you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
You will only just remember how it feels

after a year I got better and and i even started to date well i found my mr, right and we are expecting our baby in less then a week so no matter how horrid it make seem right now in the end something better is waiting there for you (:

Why does the sun go on shining
Why does the sea rush to shore
Don’t they know it’s the end of the world
‘Cause you don’t love me anymore

Why do the birds go on singing
Why do the stars glow above
Don’t they know it’s the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everythings the same as it was
I can’t understand, no I can’t understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don’t they know it’s the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

YOU CAN’T TAKE ME
“Got to fight another fight – I gotta run another night
Get it out – check it out
I’m on my way and I don’t feel right
I gotta get me back – I can’t be beat and that’s a fact
It’s OK – I’ll find a way
You ain’t gonna take me down no way
Don’t judge a thing until you know what’s inside it
Dont’ push me – I’ll fight it
Never gonna give in – never gonna give it up no
If you can’t catch a wave then your’e never gonna ride
You can’t come uninvited
Never gonna give in – never gonna give up no
You can’t take me I’m free ”

SOUND THE BEUGLE
“Then from on high – somewhere in the distance
There’s a voice that calls – remember who your are
If you lose yourself – your courage soon will follow

So be strong tonight – remember who you are
Ya you’re a soldier now – fighting in a battle
To be free once more -Ya that’s worth fighting for”

“…’Cause I been doin’ fine without you
Forgettin’ all the love we once knew
And girl, I ain’t the one that slammed that door

Now you say you’ve changed your thinkin’
Well I ain’t got a heart for breakin’
So go and pick your bags up off my floor
Oh, ’cause love don’t live here anymore….”