lots of plans and promises were made… and then some problems arises… i had some trust issues which he knows… i became so jealous of this girl cause he constantly flirts and chats with her,,, and i told him my issues… compromise was met but he didnt do his part and my doubts never went away… and then he just broke up with me.. giving me all this BS type of explanations that it is not right anymore, it was not my fault but his and a load of crap… we said our ammends, after a couple of weeks or so.. he started telling our friends that he likes this girl and he is asking her out.. and to add an insult to the injury, the girl even told me to move on cause my ex had, and that he was chasing her badly! and take note this girl is the issue that we had when we were together…

I felt disrespected and really angry that they have to rub it in my face! i might have maintained contact with my ex before cause he wants us to be friends but after all those stuff that happened i completely blocked them from everything… I even turned up to his apartment(which is technically mine) to say my piece… and asked him to move out till the next day…

i know i will be over him and that the thing we had is irrevocably damaged now… i had accepted that he will not be coming back but i just cant accept the kind of disrespect that he had shown to me infront of our friends..( him showing off his new girlfriend and i was even there at one point!)

now i feel sorta stupid… but is there anyway to save myself now?

I have been definitely better about myself, I admit the feelings come and go once in a while.

But you know what , its her loss and not MINE.

I can even now look at her pictures and not feel hurt but felt that she made the MISTAKE and not me.

I am feeling much of my old self and I believe that we all will fine true love one day. Really, I am so sure of it and that person will love us unconditionally like how we loved our ex's.

Love finds you in the most of the unexpected ways.

Don`t worry. Good days are truly ahead

Listen to the song Ridin' Solo – Jason Derulo. Its so true.

I have been watching romance comedies and they have also helped. If people can find love in movies why not in real life?

Despite how things ended, I believe that one day I will talk to my ex but not now, not in 2 -3 months. Much much later, by then all the pain/ anger/ frustration would have subsided and yes I`ll be ready for the coffee conversation.

I`ve forgiven her and there is no point of holding on to grudges

She lives her life. I will live mine. Period.

Stay strong everyone

This last weekend he was going out on friday night without me, which made me very uncomfortable and it brought it home to me that I had no friends or interests. What was I going to do, I didnt want him to see me as this pathetic person with no life or friends ?? An aquantance of mine offered to go out with me for the evening, however on arriving deciced he would rather just stay in at mine for the evening and watch videos.

At the end of the Friday night, my friend left and my partner returned from his night out. On saturday morning my partner had suggested that we stayed in together on saturday night, something that we always did anyway. I was upset as I felt like I was his lapdog, in that he could go out when he wanted and make plans around me knowing I was always there. I said to him this time, actually I was planning to go out with my friend for a meal and that I needed to do it so I had a life and some friends. He seamed unhappy that I was going out, and I dont think he could understand that I was actually trying to do something positive for me and our relationship. He said “Fine” he will call his friends and will go out – he seamed quite pi**ed off with me.

Saturday evening came and he went out again, I was sat waiting for my friend to come but he cancelled. I was sat fealing like billy no mates again and had no options of anything I could do on my own. In the end I forced myself out of the house into town, to visit the local gay bars which I wasnt a fan off, I did this as I dont feel comfortable anywhere else like say the cinema or a straight bar.

I didnt enjoy my evening out, all alone and feeling so uncomfortable but I thought I had to go out. 3am came and I thought its time to go home, prior to arriving home I was looking forward and hoping that my partner was going to be there. I walked through the door and he wasnt there which I was surprised about as he had a late night the evening before.
I checked my mobile for a msg or txt from him but nothing, I waited and checked the time. I knew there were no nightclubs open at this time and begun to worry, I left it a bit longer before deciding to call him. I called him and got no answer, I called his mother as supposedly he had gone out with her, no answer from her either. I was now very worried as to what could of happened, as we allways keept in touch. I keept trying to get in touch but nothing, then as time went on, i started thinking he most of met someone and gone home with them as I knew he wasnt that happy with me. I sent him a msg saying if ur still out with your mother dont bother coming home tonight. I was hoping that this would provoke a call to me but nothing.

On sunday morning about 9.30 am he came home, and asked in a very guilty looking way why didnt I want him to come home. I was furious with him and told him we were finished and that I wanted him to move out of the house ASAP. I guess I was hoping for a damm good explanation as where he was, and why he didnt care enough for me to let me know what was going on. I never got this explanation, and he left back to his mothers, a few hours later he came back and started packing at which point I wondered if I had overreacted. I explained to him how i felt and what i was thinking, I asked him not to go and appologised, he still left.

Severall days on now, I am regretting my behaviour and are wanting him to come back and see if we can sort this situation but he wont talk to me. I want him back and cant bare to think its all over between us. I now sit hoping for that call or txt from him but nothing comes, with each day that goes past I think and fear that is the end.

Ive sent him some txts, and had one brief phone call with him in which he just wanted to ask for some money back from me for rent he had paid. I now sit totally heartbroken and wonder why he wont speak to me, I appologised for what I did and asked him how and what he would of done if he was in my situation.

Should I assume this is the end with very little chance of him coming back or not ?